Well it finally happened. Demon finally let me go. He wrote the most beautiful letter anyone has ever written me in which he explained that he is magical and amazing and can no longer lose his self respect over trying to stay with me, because I don't want to be with him any more. He gave me his ring back and said I could toss it over the Golden Gate into the ocean, so that love can always live in the sea.
Today is the saddest day of my life, and yet I almost feel nothing. My eyes hurt though. I'm wearing his ring on my thumb. Ok, I take it back, I do feel a lot, I feel a lot of pain and regret. Did I just shoot myself in the foot, is this the biggest mistake of my life.
I want our beautiful life back...but was it really all that beautiful. The pictures seem to think so. But how was I feeling when I was there. Half the time I was frustrated and wanted to be on a tropical island sipping cocktails out of coconuts. Is that happiness?? Will I do that and then be happy?
Was I ever really in love with him?
I miss him so much already.
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