God, now what?!

So Friday at therapy all the truth came out.  I told my Demon that I had been seeing ChristChild, and that I had indeed had sex with him.  Of course he freaked out and cried and I thought that was the end of our relationship.  Later that day (I came home early from work because we had our holiday brunch) we got together again and ended up basically just drinking all afternoon.  It was hard being in his presence because I feel like a different person, I'm no longer the sweet innocent gentle all loving wife he once had.  I'm now the rebelious slutty crazy woman that he's married to.   Anyway, we spent Friday night together, I think we had sex, oh wait, no we didn't.  He went off on me and lectured me and then we kissed for a long time.  Which I didn't really enjoy.  He's not a very good kisser :(  Kind of too soft and squishy and wet.  Like kissing a mollusk.  Anyway, we finally went to sleep after he lectured me, and then next morning we did have sex.  I don't remember much about it, or I blocked it out.  So sad, so so sad how someone can be so incredibly in love with me, and I don't really feel the same. What's wrong with me? 

Anyway, Saturday morning (he had to work, but came home for breakfast) he asked me if I would be home when he got home from work.  I didn't tell him, but I had plans with ChristChild that night and therefore wouldn't and didn't want to be home.  I told him I wouldn't come home later that day.  When he was home for breakfast he said he forgave me of everything.  All the less than honest way I went about this. 

Saturday night was really fun with ChristChild.  We went to dinner and ate Thai, then went to the Medicine Ball, at the MAPS symposium thingy.  So extremely fun.  We ate a whole bunch of candy, I guess that helped.  Danced our asses off to MiHKAL and some other DJ's.  So fun! Looked at all kinds of trippy art and enjoyed looking at each other and dancing with each other.  When the music stopped it seemed like the night had barely begun.  We took a cab to his house and enjoyed each other's company late into the night and morning.  Didn't get much sleep.  Woke up around 11 the next day, went to an awesome breakfast place around the corner of his place, went on a little hike to try to find Chanterelles... then he took me home. 

Later that afternoon I hung out with my littleFoca.  He makes me laugh a lot!